I think I'm going to like 2008

I was beginning to wonder whether my blog was forever destined to be the depressing corner of the romance writing world - but it would seem I'm to have a break. I'll try and pass that on in your direction. :)

Yesterday was a turning-point day for me and mine. Scan results day. You'd think I'd be used to it all now. My husband was first diagnosed in 2000 and 'scan results days' have been a regular part of our lives ever since. But they really do loom on the horizon. Pressure building. All the different possibilities and outcomes swirling around your brain.

Actually, I think I probably handle it very badly. I seem to live all my troubles twice over. Once in my head as I imagine what might happen, and then again when they actually do! Must try not to do that!!

Last year, whenever there was the chance for things to go well or badly, they went badly. Like a pack of cards house everything has been falling down around me.

But this time it was all good.

The chemo has worked better than expected. And my husband has been put on a two year maintenance programme. MabThera isn't yet licensed by NICE for that use in England so the fact there's funding for it is amazing. For the moment I'm going to set aside any altruistic concerns about how unfair it all is and just be grateful.

Permission to get on with our lives.

Today I've let myself sleep. Not the most writerly of pursuits, perhaps, but it was necessary. And now I need to re-focus on my Sheikh.

Actually, I have two of them, Hamza and Rashid, on the go. I also seem to have created a nice future heroine in the shape of Minty. She would take over Rashid's story if I let her. And I'm wondering whether she might do very nicely for Nick, the close friend of Seb in 'Crowned: An Ordinary Girl'. Just a thought!